Studying the Book: I am Hitler Part3

Continuing with studying the book: I am Hitler

PART 3
Transition to the Dimensions :

Hitler realized himself as life as all equal and one as himself. It is a experience he never had before on Earth and something he could not comprehend when he was on Earth.
He met Bernard-- a being one and equal as himself. They laughed and enjoyed themselves together. The same when I met Bernard-- I am more comfortable with him than with other beings. Though with me, when I sat with Bernard I could clearly see the bullshit within me-- the thoughts etc. Because I in comparison to him-- he is so stable and I am a mess-- so my mess stood forth when I was with him.
So Hitler realized himself and he noticed a interesting thing: The same that exist on Earth exists in the dimensions! Wow!
He did not took everything into consideration when he was on Earth... I really thought his way was THE way... but it is not. As I was questioning: Will Hitlers way on Earth make a definite end to system demons? Nope...
He realized that when he died and look at Earth from heaven with all understanding.
Clearly I should have known that the way he walked on Earth, with all the killing and suffering he inflicted is not the way, I should have known. But I was so into the problem and would do anything to end it, but it was merely an attempt. It would not be effective, as Hitler realized in the dimensions.
Everything is the same as on earth in the dimensions
Then what is the way?
Personal Response-Ability:

What stood most here for me is that knowledge is useless when not lived. That self has to become the living expression of life as self. Understood, because not applying knowledge is separation, because the knowledge is 'out there somewhere' and it is not being lived HERE as self.
Also, that each one WILL get trough. Often I get where I find it so hard and I question why. But obviously I am making it hard for myself, because being here is simplistic and racing in the mind requires effort. As Esteni said to me on the farm: “you are being hard on yourself, Alex”.
But I could not see, because I accepted and allowed it to be what it is and not looking beyond that.
As also being stated in the book: “What must be clearly, specifically and infinitely remembered and understood is that this process of self-realisation, acceptance and awareness of who you are is NOT possible with the existence of the mind as a trustworthy companion.”
The mind who i have believed and perceived myself to be must be let go of. Everything I defined myself as, as knowledge and information.
I really thought that my mind can be trusted because I participated in it so fully, where it controlled my experience of myself, is where I still am now. And defined myself as this experience.
With all the knowledge I have about how to apply self= forgive the thoughts, emotions and feelings. I did not apply and this makes me sad and angry. I did not LIVE.

Living the Living Word & Practically the Living Word:
What stood out most here to me is to start with a blank state in each moment after we have created something, start again with a blank state. To not hold onto the past that we have bound ourselves to.
Within living from a blank state you have not defined yourself.
Though I find this hard because each time I will be reminded of me, but the key is to start over again. Because obviously how I used to handle things is not effective, otherwise it would not still affect me.
In a blank state= silent and able to direct.

It is to not have always knowledge processes running in and as your mind, but be free from it. It is really simple. To just stop, breath and be here.
I was always afraid how I will react in certain situations/ dealing with people, that I would setup these defense and protection mechanisms in and as my mind as knowledge to figure out how to deal and handle such situations. But it wasn't effective and I would fuck myself really bad with defense and protection mechanisms in and as my mind as knowledge, believing that I need that because I have defined myself as not being able to handle and deal with such situations.
But common sense is that when approaching with a blank state= without past memories and defense and protection mechanisms in and as my mind as knowledge I am able to handle it better. And that when I fear those situations I will just create more shit.
So that is a realization about how I handle and deal with things, at least how I tried to.
Also within this chapter of the book is spoken about fear of loss, fearing losing the definition of self as mind. It makes me realize how silly and stupid it is to fear losing the mind, because the mind being those feelings for instance within me. The feelings of depression and anxiety, why would I fear losing that? To such and extend I have defined myself as those designs that it leaves me confused.
I still have a hard time accepting the simplicity of being here instead of the mind. But what I can remember is that the mind is like processes of knowledge and information running inside my head-- and being HERE is being silent, simple, just here

another cool quote:
“Simplicity and practicality is the key to creating as the living word in every moment to re-establish equality within existence. And so it is and will be until all become the living word – equally here on earth in existence.”
cool, simplicity is the KEY
with simplicity being able to enjoy myself and let another enjoy self with me.
I always noticed a tension building up when with people and me going in my head: what must I say, do, be? Where I cannot enjoy the moment, myself. Obviously it is necessary to stop, stop the mind and live within simplicity.
Also here is share a heavenly experience of 2 people coming together and enjoy themselves, enjoying nature. Basically all the things I can not because I'm consumed by my mind.

I am totally not satisfied with what I wrote, because I read all this about freedom and I am realizing I am holding onto the mind, but hey, from now on it is simplicity and hereness ;-) no-more judging, not even going to re-write, it is fine.
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Focussing on my path :
dedicated Hitler, now named Mykey went into the demon-dimension to clear it up
the dedication amazes me, but it is because he saw life, saw the living word

I also want to be dedicated to life, but it always seemed so hard. Where I became sad and depressed because I cannot apply myself.

I have to focus on myself.

Allot is written, how to apply self in the chapters: Personal Response-Ability & Living the Living Word & Practically the Living Word
but if I read, I read trough it, it is unlikely I will apply, unfortunately
although, when I really push myself, who knows?

So now I will form a agreement with myself-- to apply myself-- to push myself to do whatever is required to be done-- for me

Part from I am Hitler -- Personal Response-Ability

Each one must and will transcend their mind. What must be clearly, specifically and infinitely remembered and understood is that this process of self-realisation, acceptance and awareness of who you are is NOT possible with the existence of the mind as a trustworthy companion. When I realised, accepted and became aware of who I am, my mind was not here, this is an example for all that you do not require your mind – that you'll still be here without the mind as you become the infinite silence of the universe. Silence is all that must exist within each in every moment, with every breath, then you know – I am here. Each one must and will transcend the perceived limitations within creation and themselves. The transcendence of the perceived limitations within creation and self allows for infinite creation, expansion, awareness and self-realisation in every moment with every breath.

--Hitler--

Studying the book I am Hitler Part 1: I am God

I am God

I Hitler – taking the place of God on Earth & My Encounter with World Systems & My Armour against World Systems

I find it scary how Hitler wanted to take over the world and let everyone adhere to his ideals. Disregarding everyone else that doesn't stand with his evil ways of killing people and taking over the world and so on.

Though he saw the real nature of Mankind and realized that something had to be done. As no-one would understand what he did, he would kill each one that stand in his way.

It is like fighting for good in a evil way.

I have a level of respect for him as I read how he would stand up from the systems. Understanding that we never lived, but was controlled by the Systems of the World such as government and God.

That everything we do is controlled by the system and that there is no live within that. How he would end everything that is of systems-- I have respect for that

Of course it appears cruel, evil, etc. It is cruel and evil, killing people is that, but they never lived so it is setting them free trough death—setting them free from systems

My evil nature is revealed trough reading this book.

From my perspective-- each one would have done the same if they where in Hitlers position. When seeing for fucked-up reality is really-- and understanding why it is so

How he would take responsibility intrigues me-- he daring to take responsibility for creation in ending the systems that are the cause for suffering and the in-presence of life

With common sense realizing he has to do something because nothing else will do it for us.

How can God allow such a creation? Is he then not evil? How long has to suffering to continue before WE stop?

And it is obvious drastic measures have to be taken because the enslavement trough systems is VAST.

Who is this God whom has forsaken us?

It is interesting how Hitler talks to God as if he really exits, as if he is a real person that really doesn't care for the World. As if God deliberately doesn't take responsibility for his creation.

The above description sounds like us. We are real= we are here-- and we don't take responsibility for our creation-- so in a way we don't have the right to exist, because we don't allow ourselves to live not according to submittance to the System.

But of course we appear to be oblivious to the fact that we don't live-- is that the same with God? Interesting question. So far for his 'all-knowing' ability. Perhaps 'all-knowing' how to enslave and how to create the idea and perception that we are living?

Armour as Purpose

Quotes:
“I had no self-worth, no purpose, no indication of value to my existence and reason for being here.”
“A cross-road where all are stuck, not moving or living, forgotten how to live through the fight for survival and having nowhere to turn, no direction. “

This reminds me of myself. But of course this is with ALL of Humanity.

“I will be the one to give all direction.”

Many have been longing for someone to give then direction-- and here there was Hitler-- standing for one Purpose= killing Systems and bringing forth his Promised Land

“Waiting is the cause of all this chaos. “

Yip, how long will we continue waiting for something to happen?

As weird and insane it may sound but Hitler is someone I admire in spite of all the killing and horror he caused. Hitler being the number one evil that the world has known and I stand behind him, wow.

It is hard to swallow for me as well. But the anger I have developed in myself-- the anger to the systems and society etc. is what would have consider me following Hitler if he was here now. But of course, seeing all the 'murdering' happen is a horrific sight, but I would say it is for the good of humanity to stop the systems. As the systems that is the cause for ALL the suffering that exist, ALL the hate that exist, ALL the sorrow and pain-- it had to end.

Judgment day?

But I question-- what if all this has no effect and the World will remain as it is? This indicates how I abdicated my responsibility as well. I would die by the hands of Hitler as I am a system-- and I would die with grace for the World to end systems.

It may sound really bizarre how I look at his actions-- it is cruel what he did= killing people and war against 'Systems', but in the current depth of the world it may sort it out. What if he succeeded? Would Life then be free from enslavement? I have to be honest with myself and I think it would NOT. What a desperation must exist to follow him. And it reminds me how lost I am in this World, how I would like to see a difference, how I want someone to stand up because I can't. Such a miserable existence. Why did God not stop all the pain and suffering during WW2? All the people that died and suffered by such an evil man. You could believe in God till the end but would that make a difference? No, you would still die.

Why is the existence of God still justified and within that not taking responsibility for the way we exist?
Reading this book intrigues me—by the way I look at things.

I am Becoming
How I see systems and demons & Finding the reason for the existence of the Creatures I encountered

I see this world as empty and hollow-- with no life-- just like Hitler did. I wondered for times why I am this outcast that sees that everything is meaningless and empty. Like when people have fun together-- it seems so meaningless and empty.

Why do I experience myself differently?

It is interesting how Hitler saw things as if in a picture. A picture has no life, a picture is lifeless. Humans on the other hand has the ability to move itself and think etc. But why do humans act like a picture-- lifeless beings?

His mom saying “i love you” and he finding it empty words I find fascinating.

He saw demons in everyone. Scary creatures living within people. That drink of life-essence of the being → Demons!

But why really? Why do demons exist? Do they only drink of life-essence? Why do people accept and allow emotions and feelings to take over them? Why did I let it take over me within my experience of a mind-takeover? I did not see another way, because I am controlled. From my understanding-- trough my accepted and allowed participation in certain expressions I created demons that where able to take control over me. It is really weird and strange. I would not have believed it if I had not experience it myself= being possessed by my own accepted and allowed creation.

The conclusion/answer to what I found

People are oblivious to the fact they are slaves and are being used to keep the System intact. By the demons that exist within not being able to realize who they really are and what is going on. Quite a fuck up. A big fuck up.

Is there no way out?

Finding a directive outcome to the conclusion

Here he speaks about/explains that demons require your participation for their existence. You being their power-source when allowing yourself to participate in anything other that yourself.
He suggests breathing and being here—simplicity--and the demons will be no more as they require your participation for their existence.
“Forgive only yourself for allowing yourself to separate yourself from yourself “
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from myself

Love, Sex, Money – A systematic Spectacle

He explained that sex and money is like giving your soul to the devil, because of the search, want, need and desire for sex and money-- you do anything to get it—anything

love is like a masquerade of false projections—all fake

My observations and perspectives of the World

Choice doesn't exists

also a interesting quote:
“Murder is applied by systems, by creatures, not by people. “
at first I found it a contradiction to the fact that he murdered people. But I understand that he murdered systems and not Life, so it is not really murder. But this is from understanding what Bernard told me.

So if Hitler would murder people it is not murder? It is justified when he murder/kill people? I have some question marks here...

Yea, the following quote of the “My Encounter with World Systems” chapter explains it:
“I will create a place where it will die breathing its own polluted air, suffocate in its own creation as it has allowed us to suffocate in our own creation. Suffocate, you systems, die, be no more, exist no more. I am done with you as all will be done with you when they stand as I stand and walk over you. “
He speaks of 'it'.

How I am standing up

Hitler speaks of people—they are already dead-- zombies

killing them is not murder because they are already death

He also speaks of his light that will permeate each being from within and make the systems cease to exits

Personal Experiences with demons

Demons ran away from him when he stood as himself. Here—self presence
Makes sense because demons can only have control over you when/if you are lost—thus standing as yourself, here as self-presence make the demons go away

Also when fearing demons, they would use the fear—because when fearing you are not here, but lost

He also observed the demons allot:
“You have to first get to know your enemy before you plan the attack.”

Which I also stated within my writing of my mind-takeover but the dimensions say the following:

Quote: "you can only stop something if you actually see what the fuck is going on and seeing what you are stopping."

Understand that – you’re always stopping yourself. There exist no “you can only stop something/self if this/if that” – if stopping is defined according to if’s why’s and when’s = this leave room for deception within justification, excuses, and reasoning’s and manifest self within limitation and boundaries when stopping is defined according to ‘rules’.

Self know exactly what self is doing/accepting and allowing in every moment – as self know self through and through.
Thus, the opportunity to stop exist here always, in every moment of breath – the only step that is required to be taken = IS TO ACTUALLY STOP.

Therefore, realise that in stating: quote: "you can only stop something if you actually see what the fuck is going on and seeing what you are stopping" – you’re leaving a back-door open to justify ‘moments to come’ wherein you don’t stop – using the excuse of: ‘only being able to stop if I see something/actually see what’s going on/seeing what I’m doing’. Thus leaving a back-door open for/of deception to justify why one is accepting and allowing self to continue in dishonesty and not stopping self.

Thus – you either stop you or you don’t = there’s no in-betweens or half-measures or defined within rules of if’s why’s and when’s.

Understand – actual real-stopping, is done in every moment of breath as one walk one’s Process here in every moment of breath – it’s not just one decision made to stop and then it’s certain and absolute that self stop/whatever is decided to stop as self stop – self must stop self in every moment of breath – until self as that point actually stop and it no more exist within the necessity to stop, and self from that point-on, then actually LIVE.

Oh well, the dimensions have a point. And my situation is a bit different of that of Hitlers ;-). Also has to do with HOW I stated it (as always).

How I will destroy the demons

here he shares his dedication in destroying the demons

Words to my people
Till here no further. Stop the endless fall where you hope to be cached and placed in the light. Children are the future.

How I started
you cant stop us. He started with determination—obviously

The only choice that exist in my world

Interesting perspective on choice and why it is not real—because within a programmed existence the choice is being made FOR you—and within believing you made the choice and that you have apparent free will= is deception—because you are preprogrammed

The path I walked
having sheep and making them shepherds and walking the path till it is done

Observing
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Wow, the last chapters of “I am God” really explained and portray my current life/ how my life always have been. I am a total slave! Next thing is that I will starve to death.

How I limited my world to such a extend where I have no relationships/ no job/ no nothing but myself (not even myself, because this self isn't even real...). And how I find it hard to survive etc. all is covered within what Hitler said. EVERYTHING. And I live that completely.

And the thing is; I ACCEPTED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I accepted this way of living, I accepted being a victim of the system...

“Why continue existing? What is the reason for existing in such dire circumstances? “
this is what I ask myself every day...

Realising the mind and walking from there

Yes, i have seen things that go deep to the core of being. Now i am insane and the system is rejecting me. I devote myself to Life.

Survive All!

Survival, survival, survival

I thought I should write about how I experience survival. Because survival is something that really dictates my life and the experience of myself in this world. The need to survive and base my whole existence to only survive.

It is a fuck up, because in survival we don't really live, but constantly and continuously have the urge to survive in the fear of the future, in the fear of having no money, in the fear of having no live etc.

but who are we without that? Who am I without that? What would I do?

To always look for ways how to survive in this world, it is ridicules.

In a way, I don't even exist without the need for survival, as my entire being is consumed by survival. I don't know who I am without survival and what I would do.

To just experience myself, to express myself without being concerned about survival. Not being dependent on something or someone for my survival.

It is so deep ingrained in my being that I am lost without it.

Finding ways to survive in this world. Trying to make it happen.

I, Alex, have set-up a total plan of what I will do in the future to just survive. To make money. And I try to live that up, I am going to live that. It is pre-planned, my whole life.

Isn't it fucked up? To base life upon survival?

But I question, what would I do If I did not place survival the number on reason to exist, who will I be?

I am very sad with myself that I always tried to survive and within than not living. I don't see/know anything else to do. I am lost without it.

I don't care anything else but for my survival. In these words I see the self-interested nature of myself.

I want to stop surviving, as I realize it is not who I really am.

I gave up my job to go to SA for 2 months, came back and being left without a job. So much for survival. Now I try to survive.

Still trying to eventually get my own house/ own place to live in. My dream :(

So, now, looking for a job and I find it very hard to pick something to do and decided to go work in a supermarket to make money for getting back into education to learn how to start my own company. With that also need considerable amount of years experience to start my own company. Damn, survival, survival, survival.

It is not fun and it makes live absolutely boring= survival

Entrapment - a poem

Why cry

while it will only prolong the lie

to be sad about

and to see no hope

to release from

what is caused me to be where i am

one and equal

the solution is me

how i see myself

how i experience myself

why to fear another

while another is me

when will is see

and live

to express myself

and move without bounds

finally

Ik heb ervoor gekozen om voor mijzelf te schrijven—daarbij het niet zozeer te hoeven delen met de wereld via internet.

Ik heb al heel wat geschreven over mij/mijn ervaring van mijzelf en neergezet op mijn blog (kuch).

De ervaring van mijzelf dat ik opschrijf is heel vaak negatief geweest... niet perse negatief, maar gewoon wat het is. Ik heb mij opengesteld tot mij, tot wie ik echt ben.

Meeste mensen kennen mij als een hele stille persoon dat nauwelijks praat en bijna altijd thuis is. Het is wie ik ben maar tegelijkertijd ook niet, het is niet wie echt echt ben, maar wat ik mij heb geaccepteerd and toegelaten mijzelf druk over te maken.

Het kan mij echt niet schelen wat anderen van mij vinden en hoe zij mij zien. Maar ik heb eerlijk gezegd mij heel erg laten beïnvloeden in de ervaring van mijzelf.

Schrijven deed ik met de intentie om mijzelf te verander/ beter te voelen d.m.v. Schrijven, maar hoeveel ik ook schrijf over bijvoorbeeld mijn angst voor mensen/ hoe ik mijzelf niet toepas/ nog de geest toelaat, het veranderd niet veel.

Schrijven zie ik meer een uitlaatklep van datgene wat in mij speelt, maar verder is het niet heel bijzonder en heeft het geen verbeterde effect in de ervaring van mijzelf.

Ik kan het zien als een hobby, schrijven over mijzelf, schrijven over mijn geest bewustzijn systeem.

Ik zie het ook niet meer nodig om te schrijven met een intentie mij te veranderen, het slaat nergens op want ik verander toch niet, ik ben wie ik ben en moet dat accepteren. Hierbij niet als mij accepteren maar de realisatie van mijzelf accepteren.

Ik vind schrijven eigenlijk heel leuk, want dan kan ik mij uiten, want normaal uit ik mij helemaal niet. Schrijven is de enige manier ik mij uit (voor mijzelf). Als ik voor iemand anders zou schrijven dan zou het wel moeilijker zijn.

Ik schrijf over hoe klote ik mij af en toe voel, ik schrijf gewoon wat er in mij opkomt.

Zoals nu heb ik plotseling weer het klote gevoel, maar ik realiseer me dat ik het niet ben, het is niet wie ik ben en ik stop. Ik stop een moment en adem.

Het komt steeds meer 'tot het licht' wat voor shit ik accepteer en toelaat als mijzelf en de mate waarin ik mij gelimiteerd heb. Oh, en daarbij me heel 'slecht' voelen over mijzelf, want hoe heb ik dat kunnen toestaan? Onwaarschijnlijk gaat er nog veel meer over mijzelf 'tot het licht komen' aan mijzelf, het is echt heel veel shit.

Maar ik leer nu om de geest te stoppen en het is zeker niet makkelijk en zelf-vertrouwen is van hoog belang. Niemand vertelt mij hoe het moet, ik moet het zelf doen want het is immers mijn eigen geest en niemand zo het voor me kunnen doen behalve ikzelf.

Drugs vind ik heel cool om te doen, want er komt zoveel van mijzelf naar voren als ik het doe en ik heb het gevonden als een van de beste middel om mij bij te staan in de proces van zelf-realisatie. Het is wel alleen bij hasj en wiet gebleven. Met drugs realiseer ik met dat er wat gedaan moet worden aan de veranderlijke ervaring van mijzelf en met die realisatie leefde ik door en pas ik mij aan de hand daarvan toe.

Ik heb wel heel vaak gedachten van waarmee ik bezig ben slecht is en dat ik iets ander zou moeten doen, dat ik goed moet doen. En met die gedachten heb ik mij helemaal gefucked. Dit is goed en dat is slecht, doe dit en doe dat niet. Met mijn gedachten als mijn figuurlijke God.

Maar ik begin steeds meer in te zien om te realiseren dat de geest als gedachten emoties en gevoelens niet is wie ik ben.

Ik voel me ook niet anders ofzo, ik ben mijzelf, zonder die momenten waarbij ik mijzelf verlies in de geest. Niet dat zelf verliezen mogelijk is, maar zo voelt het wel.

Het kan erop lijken dat ik bezig ben met verlichting en meditatie en liefde enzovoort, maar dat is niet zo. Het kan zo lijken doordat ik mij verkeert toepas en na al die tijd met Desteni het nog steeds niet begrijp waar en hoe het precies om gaat, maar dat is ook niet waar want ik weet het wel, maar wil het niet doen omdat mij ego het tegenhoud om te doen. Bernard noemde mij zelfs de super-ego, lol.

Toch ben ik bereid om mij volledig in te zetten. Ik WIL mij volledig inzetten, maar weet niet hoe het moet en wat ik daarvoor moet doen.

Ik heb een stabiele expressie en dat is mijzelf en de bedoeling is om die stabiele expressie te worden en te blijven in elk moment. Klink waanzinnig, misschien is dat ook wel zo.

De process om bewust van jezelf te worden staat voor iedereen in petto, want vroeg of laat moet iedereen zich afvragen wat zij accepteren en toelaten als zelf. Waarom de wereld is waarom het is.

Daarbij komt ongetwijfeld hopeloosheid bij kijken als “hoe heb ik de wereld nou ge co-creëerd?” Heb ik geen vrije wil om te doen wat ik wil? Waar ik zin in heb zonder iemand te considereren en wat de consequenties daarvan zijn? Mag ik niet gewoon mijn leven lijden als ik wil?

Voor mij, ik vind het erg moeilijk om in de maatschappij te functioneren, met anderen. Maar dat is ook een punt, om te kijken waarom ik het moeilijk vind. Waarom ik anderen vermijd, waarom ik bang ben voor mensen. En ik kan met zekerheid zeggen dat het komt door Ego, maar dat is alleen een realisatie en nog geen praktische levende expressie van mijzelf as die realisatie. (kuch). Het is nog alleen nog informatie en wetenschap.

Ik moet waarschijnlijk de ego gaan studeren en onderzoeken.

Laatste tijd krijg ik het soms moeilijk met ademen en moet soms aanhoudend hoesten.

Ok, ik hou het hierbij voor nu.

STOP Separatie

Zen and Self-forgiveness

Here i have to look what Zen is. As i understand it, it is to have peace of mind. Let me look it up, i will use wikipedia...... ah, here it is: Zen is about meditation and enlightenment. It appears that one can be 'enlightened' and can experience peace of mind as Zen trough meditation. Focusing on the positive/good/light.

But what you are actually doing by believing you can be enlighted/ experience peace of mind/ and focusing on the good/positive/light is implying that you exist as not enlightened= in despair/hopelessness/helplessness/ect. / experiencing no peace of mind= inner turmoil/ negative/bad/dark

Instead of stopping trough self-forgiveness you suppress what is actually going on/ ignoring what is going on/ not wanting to see/ect. and powering that which you suppress/ignore/not want to see/ect. because you have not effectively dealt with it.

Here self-honesty is to required to look into yourself and see what is going on/ look at the state of the world and look in common sense whether Zen is able to sort out/solve/do something about what is here.

It is believed that focusing on the good/positive/light will manifest more good/positive/light while it is not so because you are not effectively dealing with that which exist here within and as this world. How can you work with something while you are focusing on something else?

People are self-interested in nature and do not really care about for instance the starving children otherwise it would have not existed, at all. But obviously is still exist...does all the focusing on good/positive/light had any effect on solving the problem? nope, it just became worse and worse.

It is because we dont really want to put our asses in gear to stop the mess, because we are self-interested in nature and only care for our own ass. One could say that everything is tried and that there is no hope, but so you are just deceiving yourself.

You can make a difference by stopping the mind. Why stop the mind? dont i have to project love/light/positive/good in the world by using my mind to think about love/light/positive/good? No. The mind exists in polarity. The world is created trough the mind and the mind exist of/as polarity. When focusing on for instance good, you manifest bad in the world because it balances it out. the law of balance.

So when you focus on good/light/positive/love, you manifest the opposite with is bad/dark/negative/hate. And since people of this world focus on the positive so extensively, what do you create? the negative. Thats why the world is in shit= because we have created it. We are responsible because of participating within the self-interested urge and surge for love/light/positive/good as polarity constructs in and of the mind which creates our experience and manifestation of hate/darkness/negative/bad.

Therefore it is to STOP polarity, because love and hate for instance cannot exist without each other. manifesting love is manifesting equal hate because that is how the polarity construct of the mind works and exists as.

When you experience love= stop, when you experience hate= stop and realize who you are here in and as breath as life as all equal and one. It is to stop polarity as the mind in its entirety. why? because it is not who you are and it is very limited and i am sure that you don't want to come back to earth when you die as a child that is starving to death or anyone/anything for that manner that is suffering because of YOU, because you focus on love/light/positive/good in the believe that it will make your world better= self-interest.

I dare you to stop to live as the mind as polarity

and within that taking responsibility for yourself to not exist trough the mind which creates the suffering in the world.

I forgive myself to fear dying when realising the truth of me
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying within the shock when i realise the nature of me
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming mad
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear pain in dying
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as the mind
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loosing control of my world. Fear loosing my life. Fear having no job. Fear of having no money. Fear of having no friends. Fear of having no car. Fear of having no people in my world that can support and sustain me and care for me, fear having no mom.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loosing people in my world, to fear loosing my mom.

I direct myself
I am independable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my situation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am hopefully lost in my situation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as being hopefully lost in my situation where I for the moment have no job and no live
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to project myself as having a life. Where I project my mind-definitions of what I have constructed in mind as what definition I have placed to the word life and living
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to fear not being Life and fear having no life
I forgive myself to judge my forgiveness lines
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continuously live in the fear of not being life and having no life/ not living/ having no job
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear people
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in the fear of myself which reflects the fear of of people
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that it is ridicule to fear myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
till here no further! Fear is not who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make not take self-application serious but instead of doing so making fun of it
I forgive myself that in believing I am applying myself I am effective= not really doing anything but thinking that it will go over

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the illusion of love and believe that love will sort out what is here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realise within love for myself I run away from what is here and in that separating myself from what is to be sorted out.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as love
I forgive myself to fear facing every being I have harmed
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loosing myself within the maze of the Mind
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to self-honest with me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want an specific outcome in life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my live as falling apart
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying trough the process of forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to handle myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my self-forgiveness lines. It is not necessary as I am just starting with self-forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a opinion about how self-forgiveness should be/ how it must work/ how it should change me
I forgive myself that I have not realised that it is unnecessary to judge myself at any given moment/ situation
I forgive myself for my tendency of judging myself, I will stop judging me because I realise it is not who I am
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself because I believed to be good for self-forgiveness/ because I believed I already forgave myself without actually doing it

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to masturbate all the time

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to masturbate on pictures, though, feelings, desires

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up for myself as live as all as one as equal

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold me back by peoples opinion about me which i fear and avoid

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed of what i write on this blog

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear what people might think about this blog and what their opinions are against it

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to consider closing this blog because i fear what others might think of it

i forgive myself that i havent accepted and allowed myself to live without shame

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to let shame consume me

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself believe shame i who i am

i stop, i do not accept and allow anything less than who i really am

i forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to fear being in a situation where i am confronted with what i write

i forgive myself that i havent accepted and allowed myself to stand as who i am

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel like dying when i am confronted with myself

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be insecure when i am exposed, not realizing i am already fully exposed

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